To: CSW

Like i had promised csw, i will tell you the reason why i cried last friday during silat.
For all this while, I'm over-stressed about my problems. I'm having a BIG family problem.
I'm so stressed out that i cried non-stop. Even at school, i don't really talk much and all.
I even can't concentrate on my studies. Although i've tried SO hard. My parents have been quarelling and quarelling. My dad always create problems. I can't stand it anymore.
I have to admit that i've changed. It's not that i purposely change. I changed because of my dad...haiz...

Actually, i don't dare to talk back, fight back what my dad said. But now, i've become more rebel.
Please guys, try your very best to stop me being that. I don't want to change and become a rebel girl. Iwant to change to a better person. I got one thing to tell you guys, i don't respect my dad anymore. Again i tell you, i didn't purposely do it ok...

I know that people always says that whatever it is, he is still my dad. But try to put yourself in my shoes. I'm sure you will be the same. He is not the 'dad' i know. He is not like this before....

Macam mane dier uat ibu nangis dan kecewa, ayuu dpt rase. Ayuu dpt rase betape saketnye hati...

And people, i'm very very sorry if you have problems or favour, sometimes i can't help. I got my own major problem to solve. I always remember, setiap masalah ada hikmah disebaliknya.
I never forget that. And one more thing, to adek ayu wadira - akak minta maaf bnyk2...Akak rase serba salah sebab tak dapat maen pisau ngan adek. Mungkin akak kene berhenti silat for the time being:(. Because of my dad...haiz...hope you really understand my situation... Too much problems to settle... I just want you guys to doakn agar ibu sehat selalu... Insya-Allah lepas da selesai masalah ni - me, ibu and my siblings will join you guys again.

PROMISE ME ONE THING. PROMISE ME THAT CSW WON'T BREAK APART...:(

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